Working hard without losing yourself: A personal reflection

For a long time, I believed that success came with a price. If you wanted to build something meaningful, you had to be willing to sacrifice everything else—sleep, weekends, relationships, sometimes even your health. There was a certain pride in saying, “I’m too busy.” It made me feel useful, driven, essential.

But somewhere along the way, I started to feel hollow. Like I was ticking all the right boxes but missing the whole point.

I think a lot of people are in that place right now—struggling to keep up with work while trying to stay human. Somewhere between deadlines and DMs, we’ve lost the space to just be. And that’s what this article is really about. Not about escaping work or chasing some Instagram-worthy idea of balance. But about learning how to live in a way that doesn’t constantly pull you apart.

When productivity becomes identity

I used to wrap my self-worth around how much I got done. The more I worked, the better I felt—until I didn’t. There came a time when even ticking off ten things on my to-do list didn’t bring any satisfaction. I’d wake up and immediately feel behind. I’d finish work and still feel like I hadn’t done enough.

That’s when I realized I wasn’t working because I loved it anymore. I was working because I didn’t know who I was without it.

And this is where it gets tricky. Because we live in a world that rewards busyness. We applaud people who grind. We admire those who “never switch off.” It’s baked into the culture: the late nights, the side hustles, the constant pressure to scale, grow, and optimize.

But here’s the truth I had to learn the hard way: when your entire sense of worth is tied to productivity, rest feels like failure.

The wake-up call I didn’t see coming

For me, the shift started with something really small: I missed a friend’s birthday dinner because I was “just finishing up something.” That “something” turned into four hours, and I never made it. She forgave me, but I didn’t forgive myself. Because I knew it wasn’t the first time. Or the second.

It was a moment of clarity—painful, but necessary. I had built a life where my work mattered more than the people in it. And the craziest part? No one had asked that of me. I had done it to myself.

Here at Hackspirit, I talk a lot about conscious living—about making choices that reflect what really matters to you. But I wasn’t doing that. I was letting work make the choices for me.

Why we keep pushing even when we’re depleted

Let’s be real: part of the reason we overwork is fear. Fear of missing out. Fear of falling behind. Fear that if we stop, everything will collapse.

We tell ourselves stories like, “I’ll slow down after this project,” or “It’s just a busy season.” But the seasons never end. And before you know it, you’ve lived the last five years in a constant state of “almost done.”

There’s also this weird social currency around being busy. We wear it like a badge of honor. It’s a way of saying, “Look how valuable I am. Look how needed I am.”

But at what cost?

In a 2021 study by the American Psychological Association, more than 79% of employees reported work-related stress in the month before, and over a third said emotional exhaustion was a consequence of work related stress. Almost half reported physical fatigue. That’s not just unfortunate—it’s unsustainable.

And yet, we normalize it. We accept burnout as a milestone instead of a warning sign. We ignore the signs until they force us to stop.

The Buddhist idea that changed how I see balance

I’ve talked about this before, but there’s a principle in Buddhism that has deeply influenced how I think about work and life. It’s the idea of the Middle Way—not a compromise between extremes, but a path of mindful alignment. Not too tight, not too loose.

In my book, Hidden Secrets of Buddhism: How To Live With Maximum Impact and Minimum Ego, I go into this more deeply, but the essence is simple: life doesn’t have to be all or nothing. You don’t have to choose between ambition and peace. You can pursue meaningful work without losing yourself in it.

But to do that, you have to stop confusing intensity with importance. You have to stop letting stress become your baseline.

Balance isn’t about doing less. It’s about doing what matters—and doing it in a way that doesn’t cost you your sanity.

What balance actually looks like

For me, balance means not answering emails after a certain time. It means protecting my weekends. It means giving myself permission to rest without needing to justify it.

But here’s the key: balance isn’t a rigid system. It’s not a set of rules you follow. It’s a fluid, personal practice. Some weeks I work more, other weeks I scale back. I check in with myself. I ask, How am I doing? What do I need right now?

It also means knowing that I’m not a machine—and I don’t want to be one. Because machines don’t feel. They don’t grow. They don’t create anything real.

Balance, to me, is the art of being fully alive in all parts of life—not just the ones that earn applause.

A few parting words

I’m not here to tell you to work less or meditate more. I’m not going to give you some perfect morning routine to fix your burnout.

What I am saying is this: your life is not a project to manage. It’s an experience to be felt.

The importance of work-life balance isn’t just about avoiding stress or increasing productivity. It’s about reclaiming your time, your presence, your relationships—yourself.

The goal isn’t to get everything done. The goal is to live in a way that feels good while you’re doing it.

So ask yourself: what are you sacrificing in the name of “success”? And is it worth it?

Because at the end of the day, you can’t download more hours. You can’t outsource peace. And the only person who gets to decide what your life feels like—is you.